First MC of the year

I certainly didn't expect this. But this morning when my alarm went off at 6.10am, I really don't feel like getting up and facing the long day ahead. I couldn't sleep. I don't know why. All i see were numbers, and its scary. the numbers are large and going for me. but its not a dream, its just that state of between consciousness and sleep, then it keeps me alert all night long. I wonder if it could be due to the financial health check i had with zul and francis yesterday. It ended very late, i'd say. We started at 8.30pm and ended at 10.30pm. After which, I sped the way home from northpoint. All those numbers are haunting me again.

The whole day i feel very sick. Cos I'm sleepy and I can't sleep. :-( Maybe, yesterday, I didn't take the hormone pill cik din gave me at all. Doc Ang explained that my problem could be due to my hormones. That I don't have enough sleep hormones, and that is why even during the holidays, I can't sleep. I truly hope I can sleep tonight. I have a long day tomorrow. 4 periods followed by trip to presbyterian high for c girls and b girls competition, then staff meeting ( if its still on by the time we come back ), dance class at nee soon east cc and followed by the second appointment with zul. Help me go through tomorrow.....

Give a little bit of love

I have less sleeping problems now... perhaps its the change of attitude in me lately. It began with the trip to see cik din at batu pahat at a time when it was dangerously flooding due to the north east monsoon winds and rain. anyway, cik din helped me to see myself more deeply. to understand myself... and when i came back, i began seriously reading "Tuesdays with Morrie" and even my fav song at the moment, " Give a little bit of love by Joana Zimmers" echoes the importance of love to living beings, the importance of responsibility, spirituality and awareness. And these are the very things I see myself lacking in lately.. I rejoice in the last days of being 29. To be able to realise a lot of things at this age. I'm blessed. And for now, I'm going to change my thinking to be a different person... bit by bit... At the moment, trying to be a more understanding wife and also applying to work.. There has to be some good in those little rascals... Anyway, here's the lyrics of THe SoNG..

Give a little bit of love
and you get it back,
Give a little bit of pain,
you calling a trap.
For every little thing
that you say or do
Give a little bit of love
and it'll come back to you

Busy week

Still trying to get used to the queer class names. Frankly, I'm having trouble associating myself to classes like 1 Integrity, 2 Commitment, 4 caring.. I guess it takes time getting used to.

STill having problems sleeping. I may not be able to sleep til about 4 am.. Or I get to sleep but woke up at 4am. What is it about this 4 am? Really worried about my insomnia. First week, still ok. I still have the energy but if this goes on, my work will be affected. Like last year. Insomnia in the long term can do more harm than one thinks. sigh..

First weekend of 2007

On sat morning was the CCA 'fanfair'. Hubby fetched at 12.30pm, and stayed home til 4.30pm. I did some work for school that afternoon and we went for lunch at LJS at Yishun 10, followed by a trip to Sheng Siong to buy rice cooker and food stuffs. Came back at around 8 pm and cooked and had dinner at 9.30pm. Sat went by too fast. And then sunday, hubby had to work so went to Johor with my parents and brother. Went all the way to desaru. Haven't actually sat down and chit chat with my father for a long long time. Glad that I made that trip with them. I just don't understand why my father is so busy. he's free only on sundays. and sometimes, I don't get to spend sundays with them.