30th day

Ibu did not come today so i had the freedom to do whatever i want. Tried to follow the feeding routine but not so successful i think. Idham drinks way too much n too often unlike the big bro. He's so chubby now that its so scary. He wakes up 3 times during the night. and doesn't fall asleep easily after feeding. by the time he sleeps, its almost time for the next feeding. i dread night time so much. i dun know how much longer i can stand this. if it goes on n on like this, i'll die of exhaustion. hubby doesn't help with night feedings so it's really taking its toll on me.